37 Weeks

37 Weeks, originally uploaded by leslie_capron.

Here I am at 37 weeks. As you can see my belly is rather pointy. Apparently this is a sure sign that I am having a boy. Many, many people tell me this on a daily basis. Including Owen's pediatrician. Just on Tuesday she took one look at me and said I was having a boy. I am pretty sure that after three ultrasounds, I am in fact having a girl, but I'm a little unnerved nonetheless (only because the ultrasound tech who made the girl pronouncement is the same one that said there was no baby when in fact I was pregnant with Owen. ) So, if this baby pops out as a boy, there's going to be some lucky baby out there who will be gifted with the few hundred girly pink outfits that have taken over the nursery here at Casa Capron.

I've been off work since Monday and have been feeling good. I've dropped the boys off at Kindercare each day and have been slowly plowing my way through a modest to do list. Really what I'm using this time for is to catch up on bills, laundry, grocery shopping so that when the baby gets here we won't be in a major chore deficit. I'm also catching up on some sleep.

My due date is May 26. And my delivery will most likely be a c-section. During my last conversation with my doctor this week, I asked him again what his latest thoughts on delivery were and he told me that from his perspective, his goal is to deliver a healthy and uninjured baby (that is my goal too by the way...). He is taking birth recovery for me less into consideration. So, given that if we try to go naturally there is a higher risk of another shoulder dystocia and a higher risk of permanent nerve damage if the baby is severely stuck (like Owen was), then there really is one option - c-section. I'm feeling frustrated because if that's the case, I just want my doctor to schedule the date and get on with it, but instead, he wants another ultrasound next week to look at the baby's size and have more information to make a decision. I knew this time around that a c-section was very likely since before I even left the hospital with Owen my doctor told me that any future deliveries would be a section - so this is no surprise. I'm just scared of the surgery, and don't understand why I don't have a surgery date already. This really isn't an "elective" situation. So that's the latest news.

I am in a hyper-vigilant state so that every twinge in my belly is stopping me in my tracks in the hopes that this is labor starting and we can get this baby out already!